POETRY

Out of Darkness the collected poems of last night and this morning.

My Falcon

Rubber duck tower
of destruction.
Ch-Charles Manson.
A blasphemy cheese
of the mozzarella persuasion.
Rubber duck carnal
destruction tower
Ch Charles Manson.
Blasphemic Motz
the cheese corruption.
Condom.
Charles Manson.
Mold.
Sex.
Murder.
Rot.

Starry Nightmare (like Starry Night the Vincent painting.)

Oh night
time.
Train rob my day glow.
Mr Sun
where do you go?
To warm the other folks?
Nature’s second born son
accompanied by the second hand sun.
Don’t dismiss it moon.
We watch Mr. Sisko
while the night crawls on.
Wormhole like a space anus,
we’ll pass the time and space together.
You me
Vitamin E
Forever

Curdle Milkman

Pick up the milk
man
Pick up that nasty milk
man
That nasty milk you brought us
is gross
Pick it up
you filthy milkman

Trapped in Your Hugs

Soft pats on back
Hints of missing children on the carton
Soft pats for dead childhood
Insincerity like breakfast detectives
Soft pats to stay on time

That Machine is Broken and Should Be Repaired

That machine is kicked
No
Nobody kicked it
show him what a kick looks like
It is kicked
Kaput
punch your fist into your palm
It smells like it burnt through a wire
It smells like brain damage
follow his gaze to the floor
Yeah

We can’t fix it but we can replace it
I’m sorry
It’s really fucked
feign mechanical empathy with your face
that’s okay

Bars of Soap in Single File

Wait until all the soap is dry before arranging it.

Pencils in Single File

What do 140,000 pencils look like?

Goodbye Cruel World
<!—
<html>
<head><title>forget it</title></head>
<body>
<center>
<img src=”userStandingInFrontOfMirror.png” alt=”this is you”>
<p>
Look at yourself
<p>
You let this happen
</p>
<marquee>You Should Have Paid the Host</marquee>
<br><br>
<h3>Hello World</h3>
</center>
</body>
</html>
—>

They Say it Never Rains in Space

Like a trip to the sun
From freezer to microwave
Leftover goulash
Don’t use a sponge and soap
to clean the emptiness found
in the half filled tupperware
The soup gets on the noodles
and stinks the onions
Shirt, shoes, socks, rubber gloves
no pants
This person has gone insane
washing the empty parts
of tupperware
“You make me mad with your crazy!”
says
A level of crazy that can’t be helped
Put that sponge down
You’ll make a sickness

From the Dark

Hello Dawn
always a few minutes late,
Celestial love
the blanket kindness.

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Everything I know I learned on fieldtrips

I Finished The Road by Cormac McCarthy, and the movie. Spoilers probably.

The book:
Nice simple story of a man misguidedly clinging to life for the sake of his son. The story is well written with the writing style matching the subject matter. The story takes place after the collapse of the world, nothing outside of a debilitated human population is left alive. The book is about struggle without real hope, a father teaching his son to survive in a world without a future. Basically I read the last 200 pages waiting for a murder suicide, so I got a little bored with this one. Aside from that the minimal amount of dialogue in this story is strong, and the relationship between father and son is eerily realistic and relatable. Props to McCarthy.

The movie (actual spoilers here):
Immediately after reading the book I threw the movie on and throughout was nodding saying to myself “yeah, okay, that’s not exactly right but the essence is there.” That was before father and son found a fucking beetle on the side of the road! Jesus! Why!? That’s an abuse on the level of not killing Rambo at the end of First Blood. It’s on the level of not having Stella go back to her abusive husband at the end of A Streetcar Named Desire. It would be as if at the end of Waterworld they found out they were just on a great lake. It’d be like finding out that Darth Vader was just kidding about being Luke’s dad. It’d be like dying, going to the gates of eternity, coming face to face with the omnipotent, and it asks for your social security number. It’d be like having a personal tutor teach you Mandarin for seven years and then find out you’ve been learning some bullshit noises that don’t mean anything to anyone but that tutor who ends up being an internet sensation having a youtube channel dedicated to this ongoing joke of teaching you nonsense. It’s piss. You can’t just add that to the movie version of the story! You find a beetle where no other life exists? What’s the implication here? I’m pretty sure it wasn’t a twelve-year cicada, so is the movie hinting that life can start getting back to normal? Maybe they should have seen a wild herd of fucking dinosaurs, if they’re gonna throw the story in the shitter they may as well show me some goddamn super reptiles or something. I hope someone who has seen this movie can be like: “Jake, relax, it was a cicada, it wasn’t supposed to be super important, the cicadas will die eventually and the story will get back to where it needs to be.”

I'm not sure how he successfully lights shit up like this...

Another issue with movie:
The movie makes the father look super insane when in the book he’s very practical and thoughtful. In the movie the father kicks a starving, soon to be eaten, man in the face so he can lock him back into the cellar for the cannibals, why? In the book they don’t save the cannibal food but that’s cause their locked up and the cannibals come home, they don’t actively keep the food people locked up.

"Oh magosh! Papa! I slept while someone took all our stuff while I was sleeping, except the gun and a blanket!"

Also:
At the end of both the book and the movie a family finds the kid and takes him in. At the end of the book they explain they had been following the kid and his father and it’s kind of assumed they started following towards the end when his father was getting real ill. In the movie it’s implied that they’ve been following them since the bunker, so for most of the story. Why doesn’t this make sense? What was the following family eating while the father and son consumed everything in their path?
In summation:
Boooo

"Someone stole my shoes and shot me in the leg with a bow'n'arrow, I will carry my well rested son until we find this thief!"

I gotta watch some Deep Space Nine to cool down.

Answer to your question Emma: I took a fieldtrip for school when I was like 9 or 10 and we learned about the origins of French fur trapping in Minnesota.

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I Finished Deep Space Nine

I bought some green tea from the Tea Source called Gunpowder Special. It’s really light so I over-steep the shit out of it. I also haven’t washed my coffee cup that I use to drink it with since I started working at the railyard, so it kind of tastes like coffee too. It makes me think about Pearl S. Buck’s The Good Earth everytime I make it. I think about how the family in the story leaves out a basin of water and puts a single tea leaf in it. I would tell them just to drink out of dirty cups if they want some extra flavor.

When I first got my coffee maker I tried to use one of the paper cups that are in my booth. They have a wax coating on them and as I had guessed the coffee melted the wax and got drunk up along with it. It’s the reason I won’t ever have a sore throat again.

Sometimes I amaze myself with stupid thoughts and actions. I don’t actually think I’m an idiot, most of the time, but either my brain or the world have some crazy issues that prevent them from interfacing with eachother quite right. I was born a couple centuries too early, or a millennia too late. I should be post-apocalyptic fodder or a tribes straight man. I shouldn’t have a driver’s license or a SSN, I shouldn’t have three different street address that receive different parchments from different departments, I shouldn’t have vehicle titles and insurance. I definitely shouldn’t have a phone.

This isn’t to say I hate technology, or that I want to be a farmer, or that I want to struggle for my existence, but there is something wrong when humankind has evolved to be the greatest hunters in the galaxy (discluding Predator) and there is nothing to hunt.

Back when the French fur traders were boating around in Minnesota they used to hire on particularly hapless individuals who couldn’t swim, in this way they could guarantee that they would not abandon ship and if the ship sunk they would have to grab hold of the fur bundles that floated (thus saving the product.) It was brilliant and scary. I wonder how hard you’d have to squeeze a bundle of furs to make a diamond.

Sometimes after getting home from work I’m still a bit too energized from the coffee and tea so I lay in bed with my eyes closed and try to imagine how one of those canvas stretching staplers work. You know the ones that you imagine people hanging up ‘missing dog’ posters with, not the ones you have on your desk. The tedium of the thought experiment puts me out before I actually finish designing one.

I just finished season one of Star Trek Deep Space Nine. That’s all.

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Death’s My Destination

Just finished The Stars My Destination by Alfred Bester:
5

Admittedly I’ve only read an abridged version of The Count of Monte Cristo but I feel fairly confident that The Stars My Destination makes Monte Cristo feel like a half-explored wet-dream compared to the awesome awful places Bester takes his own revenger.

Bester’s protagonist, Gully Foyle, exists in an age where will is everything but freewill remains out of reach. Gully Foyle is a beast, a man of action, a cyberpunk Iron Jon motivated by hate and power. He is a piece of shit. Bester tracks Gully from apathy to animosity as he ravages the galaxy as one of the best and worst things to happen to mankind.

Great read. Never dull. Questionable values. Dissolved morality. [s]cience Fiction.

Gully Foyle is my name
And Terra is my nation.
Deep space is my dwelling place
And Death’s my destination.

(11)

 


Now I’m gonna read Cormac McCarthy’s The Road
also known as ‘Poor Dad
After reading the book I’ll watch the movie.
After I read the book and watch the movie I’ll read a different book.
Maybe a non-fiction book.

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The Princess Bride and American Horror Story

Just finished The Princess Bride – S. Morgenstern’s Classic Tale of True Love and High Adventure – The ‘good parts’ version Abridged by William Goldman

This book is absolutely fantastic. I always have loved the movie based on this book so when I found that it is basically the same thing, just more cynical and darker with its interjections of narrative, I fell hopelessly in love with it.

Early on in the book S. Morgenstern (the fake original author) writes in little comments that give a baffling account of the time period of this story such as “(This was before Europe)” (37) and “[h]e was ashamed of his attire, worn boots and blue jeans (blue jeans were invented considerably before most people suppose)…” (43) about these parentheticals William Goldman writes that “maybe it was just the author’s way of telling the reader stylistically that ‘this isn’t real; it never happened.’” (39).

Meanwhile William Goldman throughout the entirety of this book interrupts the writing of the fake author he has created who on occasion interrupts his own story creating instances in the book where ‘both’ authors are referencing their home-life. Many of the interjections seem to point out “stylistically that ‘this isn’t real” as they paint a portrait of a less than ideal existence while telling a story of true love and adventure. Through the perspective of his created characters: father, mother, S. Morgenstern, his psychologist wife, and his kid, Goldman beats to death the idea that “this isn’t real.”

Somehow Goldman uses this instrument to his advantage. Taking a story and pulling it through these personalities he’s constructed what could have been a simple fairytale and turned it into an epic.

Also his writing is the funniest shit I’ve read in a very long time:

He was seventy-five minutes away from his first female murder, and he wondered if he could get his fingers to her throat before even the start of a scream. He had been practicing on giant sausages all the afternoon and had the movements down pretty pat, but then, giant sausages weren’t necks and all the wishing in the world wouldn’t make them so. (254-5)

The humor is dry and dark, the story is heartfelt and melodramatic, Goldman weaves it together better than I could have hoped.

American Horror Story episode 1 (a review in an explanation wrapped in spoilers through the art of screen capture and caption!!!1):

1.The show begins with a duet of soullessness wielding bats and bad intentions. When they enter an old abandoned house and start punishing all the light fixtures you understand their need for an outlet — like Blanch from A Street Car Named Desire they loathe the light and no wonder, whoever has dressed these children has made a mockery of their individual selves. They know their own personal quirks and strengths but the light of day dissolves these differences as the light destroys Blanch's sense of timelessness and youth.

2. Amidst their battle with individuality the duo happens upon a dead possum. The pure symbolism here leads into a frightening (capital 'i') Inceptional journey through truth that is best left untrodden. A dead beast who plays dead, but is dead (?)(inception).

3. Fast-forward several years to modern day — a family with a car carrying no baggage and minds filled with an infinite amount of baggage trek from one coast to the other in hopes of living wherever they stop, though they have forgotten or refused to pack in the physical realm.

4. Luckily they find this affordable Victorian mansion in LA where previously a couple "Modernest" men lived and killed eachother/themselves. It makes sense really, you could have seen it a mile away. Why would Modernists ever move into a highly ornamented home if not to kill eachother/themselves? Simple aesthetic gum-shoeing would have saved property values in this neighborhood.

5. This is the maid who came with the house. You may be wondering why someone who has a clouded lense (if you can tell from the picture) worries so much about their looks that they dye their hair ridiculous colors they probably didn't achieve in youth but refuses to endure a simple medical procedure that would give them back the use of their eyeball.

  • 6. Ah-ha. It is not for her benefit that she dyes her hair but for the sake of the idiot viewer. In the perspective of the mother this maid appears calloused and soulless. In the father’s perspective she is a beautiful soulless naughty nanny, maid. Real naughty in-fact. Later she goes for the gold when she breaks every rule in the Maid Manual stimulating herself on her new patrons’ furniture.
  • 7. After walking in on the burning bush maid the father attempts to extinguish the fire in his heart with tears and semen, simultaneously in a practice known as crysturbating. cry•stur•bate (krī stər bāt) verb [ intrans. ] shed tears while masturbating, esp. as an expression of horny sadness or guilt : he crysturbated in an attempt to cope with his maid’s hottness and the death of his child | [ trans. ] he crysturbated in the rain to express his new found freedom. ORIGIN late Middle English : from Old French cribatre ‘to cry beat’ (see also WET WET RAIN).

Open letter to wordpress: what the shit is happening with those bullets?

8. The husband isn't the only one with a crush. Wife mother does the nasty with the thing pictured above which has not been identified as a an adolescent Stretch Armstrong or the robot from The Day the Earth Stood Still, but I suspect it is one or the other.

9. In this scene we enter the mind of a young psychopath who lives in the school district and is a patient of the husband father, who is a psychiatrist. While that whistling song from Kill Bill is blasting in the background this kids wanders into class wearing a fake skull tattoo on his face which he obviously saw in some awful day-time television talk-show. Srsly, look it up. (I don't have access to the internet when I write, so you'll have to find the link yourself, I know! Tough shit d00d!)

10. Later when faux skullface gets into the haunted house basement he is magically transformed through strobe-light into a Matthew Barney movie. The movie within the show was Masonic and dealt with measuring things religiously with manhood.

11. At the end of the episode the husband dad meets up with Frank from Tom Waits' album Frank's Wild Years. Frank tries to convince husbandad to move out of the spooky house by telling him about his wild years.

12. Strangely, the story about Frank burning his family while they slept didn't convince the husbandad to move out, or raise questions about the house's continued existence, but simply made him want to get the fuck away from Frank.

Things I tried to say out loud:
“Yeah yeah I can’t not see that as a real rarity around here … here.”
— me earlier in the night referring to people masturbating in my shed.

Thoughts:
I wonder if I get payed for the second 1am I have to sit through.
Does the Aztec calendar have daylight-savings? Leap-years?
Who discovered what wind is?
Q: When is a mathemagician not a mathemagician? A: When it’s accounting.
Can I bury loved ones in trash dumps? Legally?
Would there be a profession that guarantees entrance into heaven? Like being a fireman?
What’s wrong with the rose bush in the front-yard?
I don’t like the idea of eating gourds.
MF Doom’s Special Herbs make for good reading music.
I’m starting Alfred Bester’s The Stars My Destination.
The Cars My True Frustration

(?)

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I ate my last bean and beef burrito not by choice but because I don’t have any left.

Glee s03e04:
Possibly the worst episode of Glee ever. This season saddens my soul.

Night Lunch:
Best leftover bean’n'beef burrito ever. Homemade.

Coke’s new holiday can for 2011:
C
When I pulled it out of the box I almost shit myself thinking I had picked a diet. Also, too soon. Would receive a better grade if it would have incorporated the red.

Personal Inventory:
Jake casts Summon Henderson!
A wild William appears!
A wild William casts Pack Your Fucking Bags, Let’s Ride!
Jake‘s couch availability drops!
Jake uses A Shot of Uzou!
Jake‘s speed is raised!
Jake is fully paralyzed!
He can’t move!
A wild William casts Kive Drive!
Jake climbs into the driver seat!
Jake casts On Me!
A wild William is immune!
Nothing happens!
A wild William casts Fly!

Currently reading William Goldman’s The Princess Bride:
So far this book is amazing. Some of the funniest shit I have ever read.

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My Bad

My late nights (mornings) have turned to bookstore outings. I stay up real late and go out and buy books, first Half Price Books, then Barnes & Nobles’ used section. Since the ‘mythology’ section at B&Ns is right next to the used section I usually peruse (I just spelled peruse – parooze) looking for a book of norse poetry which I can never remember the name of, it’s never there, or at least I don’t recognize it. That’s when I noticed an out of place book entitled On Beauty and Being Just, and I thought to myself ‘didn’t I just mention that in my last blog post?’ Yes, sort of, I gave a brief inaccurate summation of one particular essay contained within the book and credited it to Susan Sontag. On Beauty and Being Just is written by Elaine Scarry. I was embarrassed when I realized my mistake but also in great awe of the fact that the book found its way to me just a couple hours after I posted the error. So, I would like to apologize to Elaine Scarry for this internet inconsistency in the last post. Though I can’t change it on principle. For one, this post wouldn’t make sense if I fixed it. Secondly, I think falsities on the internet only strengthen the great critical thought experiment that is, the internet.

I just finished reading The Intuitionist by Colson Whitehead:
4
I’m not super into the writing style of this book. Some of his lines are absolutely perfect in their creative descriptions but often they just slowed me down or became distracting. The story itself is slow to mobilize but it picks up nicely once it gets into the last half.

I started watching Deep Space Nine season 1:
Worst acted pilot episode I have ever seen, aside from other Star Trek based shows.
This clip wasn’t the worst, it makes more sense in context, but it’s a nice watch:

Next book:
Princess Bride or The Stars My Destination
I’ll probably go with the light-hearted fun one

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Everybody Loves Ketchup

I stayed up early past the crack of dawn this morning and went to Rainbow for food stuffs. The deli was just opening so I waited patiently for the novelty of having someone wrap shit up. Eventually deciding on a pot roast I took the first beef hunk in the row and headed home to cook it while I slept. I decided on a Coca-Cola, carrot and onion roast. It turned out pretty bland so I packed some ketchup along with it for my night lunch. I haven’t been a real big fan of ketchup, generally skip it on burgers and hotdogs and use less than the recommended amount for cooking. But, when I dipped some of that bland beef into the tomatoey corn sugar goo – I had a Susan Sontag moment.

I imagined Sontag sitting on some faraway veranda sipping orange juice champagne and gazing out across the edge of an ocean speckled with Palm trees. She stops drinking, sets her book down on the table and for the first time realizes that Palm trees are beautiful, despite their kitsch or saccharine connotations. Despite the fact that she knows they’re ‘supposed to be’ beautiful, a trait that makes them kind of tacky.

With the small floor heater positioned between my legs I lean over my plate and just gaze at the ketchup. It’s disturbingly homogenous. It looks like something squeezed out of a kindergarten class. I imagine it to be what clown blood looks like. I love it. It took my undersalted roast and transformed it into boiled meat candy. I start wrapping my fingers with the slices I had precut before heading to work. Some work more as finger sheaths and others as rings, one particularly long one I’ve taken and made a wristwatch with.

Covering the surfaces with ketchup I ornament my new accessories. Here is a ruby ring! Here, a rare collection of red amethysts have been inlaid into my finger sheath! On my wrist there is now a 24 hour watch without numbers, very cute. I make a fist. The rings and watch stay in place on my hand but my finger sheath has turned into a blade protruding from my knuckles. Without disturbing my prizes I bring my hand back slowly to explore it in detail while I mouth the lyrics to Tool’s Disgustipated as it plays on the screen in front of me.

The music goes silent. Probably a silence brought on by the attempt to create ‘hidden tracks’ that comes from the compact disc era.

I bring the end of the meat blade up against the screen. I rub it on the ‘next’ button on my iTunes. Nothing happens. I’m not surprised. With my unadorned right hand I type out ‘stan ge.’ Girl From Ipanema comes up and I make it play the titular track. I wait. I wait for Astrud Gilberto. I wait, and then I hear her sing talking. I bring the blade about the screen in a fashion that mimics the walking of puppets. I’m leaving wave forms of grease on the screen as it breaks into the first horn solo.

I imagine Joseph Beuys behind me, arms crossed, silently nodding in approval. Through the reflection of the large window in front of me our eyes meet and he mouths “I know.” He says it in German. I know what he means. I know too.

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SPEAKER FOR THE DEAD & THE WALKING DEAD

Finished reading Speaker for the Dead. Here’s my review:

Orson Scott Card’s Speaker for the Dead
3stars

This cover has absolutely no relevance to the pages inside. Aside from the title.

Lacking the simplicity of Ender’s Game, in both story and style, Speaker for the Dead tells the continuing story of Ender, Andrew Wiggin, Speaker for the Dead. Much of the story interests me, particularly pieces dealing with the “piggies” and the other space shit. What does not much interest me are the blabberings of ‘truth,’ religion, and the ceaseless emotional exploration of characters that I have little to no invested interest in. The fact that this story takes place on a Portuguese speaking Catholic planet also doesn’t help much, I find the interspersing of Portuguese bits more obnoxious than flavorful and I still couldn’t name the characters to save my life. There is even a section before the story starts entitled: “Pronouncing Foreign Names,” which nearly got me to throw the book out. I felt that the strength of Ender’s Game was in its simplicity and here Card has filled his story with names I find unpronounceable belonging to characters that could have made the story stronger through retroactive birth control.

It’s a good book, but didn’t live up to the back cover:

“Less brash than Ender’s Game, SPEAKER FOR THE DEAD may be a much better book. Don’t miss it!” —Analog

“The most powerful work Card has produced. SPEAKER not only completes Ender’s Game, it transcends it.”* —Fantasy Review

*personal note: this statement is patently false.

Next book: The Intuitionist by Colson Whitehead

Personal Inventory:
Mostly I wake up grumpy but now with shorter days the lack of sunlight makes me sad in the mornings (evenings) but Joe and Carlye got me sunshine pills that seem to actually work for mood, at least placebicly.
I got some watercolors so I can paint with very little clean up, but it turns out night scenes are extremely difficult to convey with the medium.

Thoughts on The Walking Dead:
(HERE THERE BE SPOILERS to s02e02)

Firstly I must confess that Game of Thrones has ruined television for me, aside from Glee and Work of Art it’s pretty hard for me to watch anything new. The Walking Dead’s first season ended with one of the worst explosions I have seen on a non-SyFy channel movie, the characters in the show generally make pretty poor decisions based on their situations, and if I could go into tv land I would immediately vote off that old guy in the RV. Regardless of my hang-ups with the show I continue watching out of my fascination with the idea of zombies and what they mean culturally, I hope each time I sit down to watch the show they’ll have some great social statement epiphany for me. I’m slowly losing hope.

But I wait, wait for some sort of sophomoric comment from the old RV guy like “I didn’t realize how much of a zombie I was before I had to start living for myself” or some equally shitty statement that would at least hint that someone is formulating some subversive message for me. I’ve always said zombies and nazis are the only people you never have to feel bad about killing, and zombie nazis of course you have to go out of your way to kill. This is an interesting topic in itself, that we’ve made a safe place in our minds free of criticism where we can murder shit. Though unlike the mental nazis, zombies are victims, an even more disturbing thought, we’ve created a mental image of an unhealthy victim of disease and physical abuse who we now can kill without mercy.

Anyways: at the end of the first episode of this second season the obnoxious and surprisingly useless son gets shot in the chest, which honestly elated me since the only previous tension within that family was that the wife slept around. Let me just say that no one will give a fuck about adultery when there are zombies roaming the planet, so really this had been a non-issue they’ve been following for more than a season. I was hoping that the son getting shot in the chest would switch some stuff up and was looking forward to the husband and wife’s major loveless fallout, but as becomes apparent in episode 2 their son is invincible. I’m not an expert by any means but I get the feeling we have the term “lung shot” because it’s generally bad, though for this kid it seems mostly just painful and he’ll probably pull through regardless of getting appropriate medical attention for his usually fatal wound.

Basically there was no need for episode two, this show wastes more time than Dragon Ball Z.

My lunches of the past week and a half:
(sandwich)
Bologna
Marbled Bologna like meat
Lettuce
Swiss cheese
Pickle
Bacon
Mustard
Tomato

I weave the bacon with pickles into a mat that I place on top of all the other ingredients, I think it actually makes it taste better, and nothing slides out.

Thoughts:
What if my finger hairs grew so thick and long that it became difficult to type?
What would vampires think about boners?
I want to be buried above ground, naked.

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Train

New blog style.

I’m just gonna write shit on this as often as I can, tentatively I’m planning on each day I’m at the railyard, but that seems unlikely.

For now I’m going to post a list of ideas I’ve had in the last 58 hours:

Videogames as folklore
Mario – Plumber’s apprentice who sets out to wander the world
Castelvania II – A second-born prince who has travelled into a cursed land
Born after the curse? The night is inhabited by only the youth

If the years of childhood are so formative why do we treat kids like children, and what effect does that play on adulthood when everyone was welcomed into the world as dependent, disrespected, and refused input? Or was that just my childhood?

Opinions: because you’ll never be right, in truth or sanity.

I use my coffee maker to make water ready for tea. It has two purposes. I dream of becoming that useful. Then I pondered about the fact that I help it make the coffee, so I’m also responsible for that, that’s helpful. And then I think, once the coffee is made, it’s really quite wasteful sitting there, and then I help to drink it.

Now I’m going to write about my displeasure while watching and having watched Work of Art Season 2 Episode 2:
What the shit judges? Why do all agree that Bayete’s piece was the best thing in the gallery? It was a series of videos of him spinning while holding the camera pointed at himself, I’ve seen the same fucking thing done by that guy in the “your business card is crap” video. It’s the definition of one note, it’s flat, mesmerizing is a word I might have used for it, but no more than that. Nascar is mesmerizing, Winking at myself in the mirror is mesmerizing. By itself it isn’t a very excellent trait. It’s work that attempts to legitimize everyone with a self-fascination strong enough to take pictures of themselves to think: “hey, that’s fucking awesome, I will hence forth be adequately satisfied with simply looking at myself.” To which I would say: “please, for the love you have for yourself, please, stop destroying humanity.” I wouldn’t have even been that upset if the judges just disputed Bayete’s masterpiece, it’s hard for me to believe that they couldn’t find a single thing to critique it with. How about, it is boring, and over used. I’m trying to think if they used the same shot in Dumb and Dumber.

Books I’ve read in the last 58 hours:

Orson Scott Card’s Ender’s Game
Peter Bognani’s The House of Tomorrow
I’ve started Orson Scott Card’s Speaker for the Dead

Beautiful women I’ve seen in the last 58 hours:
4 at Half Price Books, no shit, go at opening. I wanted to impress them with really cool purchases but I was dead tired, and I had to poop really bad, so I left with The Stars My Destination and Speaker for the Dead, probably not the hottest or coolest shit I could have gotten.

Thoughts on Breakfast at Tiffany’s:
I thought Tiffany’s was a breakfast place, it is not, it’s a jewelry store. I have a hard time reconciling the blatantly racist portrayal of the upstairs Asian neighbor with the rest of the story, I have my doubts of it being part of the original tale. Mickey Rooney has been added to my ‘the Bob Hope List of Irreparable Douchebags,’ others included in the list: Alexander Graham Bell, my childhood babysitter, Dracula and of course the titular Bob Hope.

SPOILER ALERT!! NEXT PARAGRAPH HAS B@TIF’S SPOILERS!!

The movie is about a couple of wildly dependent individuals that frequently abuse their upstairs neighbor and household pet while coming off not a little bit narcissistic and a hair shy of serial killer crazy. They experience a multitude of ups and downs while eventually reaching the climax of their relationship when the lead man proposes with a cracker-jack ring to his love interest while she is throwing her cat out of a taxi and attempting to flee the country while under federal inditement, a sad reminder that even love produced children are born into American prisons. The saddest part of course is that neither one of them likes themselves nor are they making any real progress towards a healthy relationship, internally or externally. I get the eerie feeling they’ve already separated before the credits have finished rolling.

Aside from fucking Mickey piece of shit Rooney, I very much enjoyed Breakfast at Tiffany’s it was very honest and frightening. Favorite Audrey Hepburn movie.

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